I Get By With a Little Help From My Friends

Yesterday was an incredibly emotional day for me. I had been thinking a lot about life, and what I was doing with mine. I freaked out because I really didn’t know what I was doing with my life, as far as this issue goes. I’ve been challenged by new perspectives and influences, and it really unnerved me. Even though I have told my family, I have a hard time talking to them about my SSA issues, not because I don’t love them, but because its hard for them to understand (which is completely understandable…I don’t even understand it, but thats beside the point). Anyway, I ended up calling one of my good friends from the whole Alaska experience. We are fairly close, and I knew he would be understanding. It ended up being one of the best experiences I’ve had so far in telling people. For the first time, someone told me that all they care about is that I’m happy, and the rest doesn’t matter. For some reason, that struck me. My family is incredibly supportive, of course, but there seems to be this underlying current of fear that I’m going to go off the deep end–whatever that entails. Anyway, it was a great conversation, and I ended up feeling much better about life. He texted me this morning and asked if it was ok for him to tell his fiancee, who is also my good friend. I agreed. She called me later and took me to lunch. She told me that it changes nothing and that she loves me anyway. It was incredibly helpful and reassuring to have two people that I love support me like that.