What a week this has been! I was in a major, MAJOR slump. I only went to two classes the entire week. But, I discovered that I have some great, supportive friends, including some new friends that I’ve made (you know who you are!). But, I am feeling a lot better today. Part of the reason I am feeling better is because of some great conversations I have had this past week that have helped me sort out some of my confusion. I’ve come to the realization that I REALLY just need to stop thinking about what others expect of me and find out what is best for me. I’ve been afraid to do this for a while, because when I step out of my normal routine, I feel like my family starts to freak out, thinking that I’m headed toward the dreaded gates of gayness. I just need some time and some space. Some time to figure out what things really mean to me and where they belong in my life. My life is like the current state of my room–pretty messy and disorganized. Its time to do some spring cleaning! My room could probably use some work too 
Give Me Some Space
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#1 by Andy on March 16, 2010 - 7:16 am
well hello there. when you’re done with your room go ahead and come take care of mine.
I’m very happy for you. I can tell that you’re an amazing person and have so much to offer to not only the world but also to yourself. There is an incredible thing that happens when we can be a help to ourselves and not a hindrance. You know where to find me my friend. 
#2 by Levin on May 24, 2010 - 5:20 pm
Hey there. I’m just getting started in the whole Gay Mormon blogosphere and I came across yours. I like a lot of what you said and so much of it sounds SO familiar. The slumps, the indecision, the family expectations. And I certainly have felt the need to take a step back, take a breath and get my bearings again.
I’m glad you’re getting things sorted out. It’s not an easy situation to get a grip on. Hope you’ll keep us updated on your progress.
…and good luck with cleaning your room. That may be the hardest step of all!