This song brought me a lot of comfort the other day. I was able to simply forget myself and reflect on the glory of God. Things haven’t been easy lately, but I wonder if I might take that as a good sign. I am coming out of a long period of apathy. Things are easy when you’re apathetic. But, apathy has no other reward. The lack of pain also brings with it a lack of joy, a lack of love, a lack of genuine feeling. I have many things to repent of, and the apathy was meant to be a refuge from the shame and hurt caused by these things. I still have many miles to go on the path of repentance, but this simple song of praise was a much needed reminder that I don’t have to be perfect or at any certain point along the path to praise my God or to show gratitude for His everlasting mercy.
I have been inconceivably blessed. There are days when I curse the fact that I must deal with this issue. And then Heavenly Father reminds me that I don’t have to do it alone. I have some wonderful people in my life to support me. And He always knows when I might need a friendly text or a chance meeting with a friend on campus. I usually withdraw when I’m feeling ashamed and depressed, but I’ve discovered just how important it is to reach out and ask for help at those times. Not only from friends, but from Heavenly Father. Expressing what I’m feeling and thinking to someone who genuinely cares is essential to preventing the slumps that I’ve been getting myself into.
Like I said before, things haven’t been easy, but I feel so much better for trying.
